Category: Paying Attention
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Dating With a 10-Year Age Gap
Where I Need to Be Clear Upfront Here are the things you need to know. I am the older woman in my relationship. This is something I think about regularly. Not every day, but probably every week. I’ve never had the desire to be a cougar, but I guess technically I am. That’s fine. I’ve…
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The Idea of Getting Married Again
Where I’m at I’ll start this off by saying I’m not engaged. I’m just a nice lady who thinks about everything all the time. I’m in a very loving and healthy relationship with my boyfriend, and the idea of making things official on paper is something we’re into. I couldn’t imagine sharing my life with…
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What I Notice About My Body at 40
This Is Not a Complaint Log This post might read like I’m complaining. I promise I’m not. It’s more of an inventory. Turning any milestone age makes me reflective, and turning 40 made me think about my body in particular. These are just things I’ve noticed. I’m sharing them in case someone else is noticing…
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Loving a Dog and Losing Them: What Stays After Goodbye
The Kind of Love You Don’t Question I still say my relationship with Mr. Jax was the most stable male relationship I’ve ever had. Loving him was easy. I got him when I was 21, and he was with me through everything. He was there for my college graduation. He gave me strength when I…
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What Felt Different This Year
What Expectations I Had About Turning 40 That Simply Didn’t Materialize Turning 40 is kind of like turning any other age. Nothing really changes, and I think I’m still too close to it to notice anything meaningful yet. Time needs to pass before anything becomes notable. I half expected a moment where I suddenly felt…
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Turning 40 and Still Paying Attention
Even though this post is about turning 40, let me take you back ten years. January 14, 2016. I had an early morning, so it was still dark. I woke up and wandered to the bathroom, barely awake. I remember perking up once I looked in the mirror because even though I knew it was…
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What I’m Relieved to Leave Behind From This Year
This year asked a lot. More than I was prepared for, more than I would have volunteered for, and definitely more than I would recommend to others. As the calendar turns, I’m not interested in a grand reinvention or a dramatic “new year, new me” announcement. I don’t have the energy and I don’t think…
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Saying Goodbye to My Pekingese: In-Home Euthanasia Experience
The Most Stable Male Relationship of My Life: My Dog Jax I wanted to wait until I was “ready” to talk about Mr. Jax, but I’ve realized I’ll never truly be ready. Eighteen years of love is hard to condense into words. Still, I’d rather share my experience now than never share it at all.…